simple and simplistic so unrealistic.

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 20:07:27 GMT

a man plays piano. what does it mean. other than another person will get to bash him for not playing well enough. a woman raises her child. whats it worth. the child will say it wasnt raised well enough. while others criticize the woman for how she was raised her child. we all go to the supermarket. but what it worth. who needs food when you dont want life.

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 09:59:23 GMT

so that was a fun night....

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 09:14:38 GMT

i feel oh so alone.
although that this feeling of alone.
is not the reason alone.
that i should be all alone.
but i am all alone.
althought this feeling of all alone.
will make me all alone.
because if you feel alone.
than you will be alone.
they will leave you all alone.
oh i feel so alone.
although alone
alone is.
the reason i alone
want this.
when alone isnt justified.
than you wont buy the lies
alones want crucified
than they wont hear your cries
although i wont say how i feel
for if you doubt if i am real.
than i will be not real.
for what is to be real.
if i werent to be alone.
alone is only real.
alone is how i feel.
but if alone is what you are
than alone is what i feel.

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 17:30:29 GMT

every now and than a strive to be something better will come about. appreciate those times, because they will become the only ways one could better themselves eventually. heres to you, the forgotten.

3DKKLL

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 22:09:21 GMT

so today at the plasma bank some really funny things happened
1. i watched someones blood tube explode on them. funniest part besides spraying blood all over him. is he only got half of the money because of this mishap.
2. the money machine broke and i never seen so many poor people angry. for future reference do not mess with a poor person and the little money that him/her honestly earned.

have a good day everyone.

9DKDA

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 15:01:05 GMT

i went to sleep at 8:00 p.m. ish and i woke up just a few minutes ago. around 10:00 a.m. im not in a good mood. and im going back to sleep. im sorry for those who were affected by my knock out last night particularly Ricardo and to anyone else who meant to reach me. im going back to sleep. for at least in my dreams it feels real.

38eial

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 17:38:07 GMT

would you give up everything you had everything you known, your house your home, your money, your friends your life, your hopes, your dreams. give up everything i mean everything.

for a person that makes you feel something youve never felt before?

i know what i would do.

im going on vacation tonight
under the sun of neon lights
i almost love this town
when your by my side
i almost believed i was dead
and there will be no more waiting
your gonna melt all the ice in my head
and there will be no more crying
your gonna make it all better instead

im putting this night down to bed
cause i was sitting at the bar
hoping you would walk in the door that says killians red
cause i left you a note that said come on and come out
and will both get right off of our heads
and float up off the chairs

i get secrets at night
but they dont stay
i get secrets at night
but they go away

will go on vacation tonight
under the sun of neons lights
and i almost love this town
when im by your side.

you woke me from a long sleep
and im almost back
im closer than ever to find it
the hidden track
if i told you the truth
you wouldnt like what i said

i almost believed i was dead
and there will be no more waiting
your gonna melt all the ice in our heads
and there will be no more crying
your gonna make it all better instead

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 18:58:57 GMT

and so it was. i ripped there faces from the heads and said. i told you that you werent going to be the ruler. i still talk to there faces. for there faces would never know the difference. if you were to be inside of a huge box named logan. would you be content with staying with in the box. or would you stretch the box to the end of its means. making a possibility of the box breaking free. freeing you and everything inside logan. i know what i would do. i wish all of you knew what i do. have a wonderful day everyone. im going to go sell plasma for car insurance.

3-9dao

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 18:09:59 GMT

i havent ever felt this before. in all honesty, ive never been more scared and felt so fragile in my life.
im going to go find a job. i need to find work. or else it could never work.

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 09:09:57 GMT

i wish i had more to offer.
i wish that i had a job.
i wish i had enough money.
to get through the days.

i wish i would of done more.
with my life. maybe become a doctor
maybe make you my wife.
maybe than possibly
things would be alright.
when you feel its right.
you know its wrong.
i wont speak of this
until long after your gone
that way its more
meaningful when it comes.
though you havent gone,
no
not just yet.
i know that the thoughts is in
both of our heads.

i dont have a plan
its hard to understand
but if i had anything
itd be yours
im not very smart
im not very nice
but darling i can fake with the best of them.

but its getting hard to live
like a jukebox running
just for when the drunk lonely souls
want to play when they wanna
its getting hard to look on
when the skies are oh so gray.
you sit and you hope, that maybe someday
love will come and take you away
but in the end your dreams
are not what you become
youll drown your beats will alcohol and pills
just so your heart doesnt have to feel
but once you lost
the only thing you love
its hard to get back to zero
yes its hard to make you feel nothing.
when youve lost.

no matter how hard you try
you ask yourself why
no one knows but you
so you dig deeper and it just hurts worse
to know that you lost
your hopeless at best
well i want you to know
that even though
i dont
got much but a pen and a touch
that ill put my whole life in
just so that we can begin
but i dont even know
where to start
i havent got a penny and i got a broken heart
i find enough just to drink and sit and dwell
think and think
about how things would be different if
i would of done more with
my mind my heart my work
if my love
i could do it all again i would my friend
but i havent got a whole to offer to you
so go ahead and do what we know you would do.
you will move on
find yourself a new man honey
one that can make a whole lot of money
he can build you a house a palace for you
even a whole closet just for your shoes
while i regret i lost you my girl
but i havent got much to offer.
heard your stomach stillaches
well i hurt to
i wanna give you my intestines
just to see you again
everything i have
the world that i live in
the flesh that i breath in
id give in
just for one night
then maybe then
everything will be just arlight
but i havent got much to offer.
ill never tell until your gone
i dont want to spoil it until its come
but when you decide
to hide or run this is my apology for what ive become.

im sorry
i havent got much.
im sorry
i havent got much.
yes im sorry, i havent.
yes im sorry.
yes. im sorry for what i have become.

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 03:57:09 GMT

i would totally love to kill myself however, what would be the point if no one were to come to your funeral. well no one really. sure there would be the lurkers that attend every funeral and people that once knew you. but. i thought of how many people like myself have killed themselves. and i always thought of them sweet. until the whole killing themselves deal. so. maybe i shouldnt, maybe people would show, who knows. im not dead. but the fact that some people treat me as if i were. makes me wonder what it would be like. and if i can wonder what it can be like. than i can be it. and if i can be it than i am it. and if i am it than. you were right. so lets just start back to where it all began. well. where did it begin. to me it seems like it always was. i just remember that it was from a loving birdie she saved me. i always hoped that id be able to return such a favor. show her the faith and love she restored in myself. but such favors seem trite when everything is juxtapose. for future self note, i remind myself. that through being who i am, no one can ever fall in love with me. what i am a part of is bigger than me. it hurts me hard, to know that i will never be able to give back love. and that the love i had previous the incident. can never be taken away. no goodbye, no handshake, no hug, no kiss, no flicker in an eyeball. can ever make it go away. and it will continue to pump through the hearts and souls of all. for it is the moral fabric on which we live. i am sorry the thoughts are different, i am sorry that opinions vary, i am sorry for those who will never get to know me, because of my shields. for those, who my shields have been down, i want you to know that i love you, i always will. my only purpose, is to make you happy. so as you ask me to leave, i will do as you wish, but i never will be gone from the mind. forever throughout all time.

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 20:14:27 GMT

i am completely unaware of my surroundings currently. i think i really lost my minnd. im gonna sip some coffee. i almost died last night. ive never been so scared. it was liike i predicted only different. becuase i reacted differently. but i home now. and almost everything has seemed to have worsened since when i left. a day prior. what do you do when you dont know what this is.

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 20:38:33 GMT

dont be malicious like kid sid vicious, kid come ova to the boba in your best clothes uh and if i think i know ya,like i was supposed ta , than for sure show up lick it to the lean to the toe up, you got the nicholas megalis not from vegasus i dont know who the heck he is but he sounds preetty sweet with his new orleans style and his dope ass beats than you got your sam goodwill and i know you will definately nod ya heads so check your files they been rock rock rockin with the nile cause they always had got the flow and they can flow with the boogie down pro fessionals, than you gots the either origami yo, they all are young and they all our chicks but expect it to blow up make you wanna throw up shits out bout to go up because of its so awesome dominance make your head spin and than you might be spent, aint nobody can hold a mic to them, and if you even tried youd end up an ex friend ,cause what would happen to you id just feel bad. but id feel like id have to beat ya for being so lame beat ya like i was your dad, but with a different name, so why would you challenge the best and the fashionaly clad, but remember its all for that boy named cupid, so dont be stupid, its valentines day ball so get down with us sunday call in your sundays best. love circuit came to rock your chests. breathe. word.

Boba 7:00

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 14:22:00 GMT

purple, orange and gray, what do they say, what do you do, when you dont know what, life really is, what is life, antartica is, a hot air balloon, than when judgement day comes, will carry the rich to the moon. i have a ticket to come on the ride, but i will reside in the ocean (a carl rogers reference btw) until the robot cars. that drive themselves. drive me back to mars, my only true love, to which i send signals, back home through the mirrors, purple orange and gray, what do they say, what do you do when you dont know what, life really is, what is life, life is a series of connections, that has an ultimate purpose, its all will become subversive, and we will understand what its all about, through the tv and the radio, they program what to do, i tell you all of this, because i love you.

youll get the virgins you were promised, too bad they will be children.

everyone loses it too young now.

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 21:55:28 GMT

oh and happy birthday to god herself. i mean. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDAN!!!!!!!!!!!

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 21:18:58 GMT

if its your birthday why wouldnt you blow something up? thats the only way i know im still alive..
in other words.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS CHRIST! i mean. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKE!!!!!!

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 21:15:44 GMT

man i was sitting here. high on alot of things. and i asked myself. if teeth had villages. what tooth would be in charge of all the rest. and i think my my left bicuspid would reign supreme. he'd prolly enslave the rest of my teeth. and start planting nuclear bicuspids in my gums attack my molars and such. but i was thinking. if i didnt have this so called disease. than what would be the point of planning. if i didnt have time. if time was created by man. than how could time be one of the 3 components of the world as we know it. time, space, and matter. time was created by man, to confine man, to make him work to make him go to job, to make a reason to speed up the process. but if it always existed than how could man. wow. so. BICUSPID KILLS ALL.

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 00:07:11 GMT

so i officially decided if i had more teeth. id kill more people. thati should really start smacking those who dont get it. that im probably gonna die/end up in jail soon. that if a astrawberry were to be just a fruit. than i would eat it with pleasure. that i do not like those who dont say what they mean but will say what they dont want to mean to you. that at least five people wish i were set on fire already. and taht another 5 is starting a petition to stop it. that if a lesson was to be learn thatd it would be for your face to explode on to the host of which you will eat. i am not the host. i am not the host nor will i ever be, and i would never want such a task. i hope all you trite slamming dunking donuts robot eating s.

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 20:16:06 GMT

today i drove a man named Albert. a young recovering cancer patient who is also a writer. i came across a morally questionable dilemma. but im not sure if what i did was wrong. Albert invited me to take a painkiller, and smoke a joint with him. As I debated, i couldn't find anything wrong with it. For is it wrong to do drugs, possibly, but that waved by to me in the 7th grade. is it wrong to do drugs with a cancer patient. i do not know. for if i was his age, still young and diagnosed with cancer. i would still do the occasional drugs for fun. but id feel the need for them more. cause i dont have much time left. he with his time left. wanted to get me high. so i obliged. he gave me a carton of free cigarettes. for he only has one lung left. and bid me a due.

sincerely,
simeon.

389DA8

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 23:35:56 GMT

Is the world fucking retarded? We are at war. everyday. there is people dying. dying for what. how many lives have to be lost, before we become lost ourselves. how can you force freedom upon someone. we are killing people in order to pass freedom? that in itself cancels out freedom. For if i were to have brothers or sisters killed by anyone, it would only be natural to feel hurt and want revenge. Spawning for future generations more hate. So we kill their brothers and sisters. Democracy isnt freedom. How would America like it if another country came into ours and opposed are government on it.

"well they get to vote on their leaders."

YEAH AND FUCKING AMERICA NEVER HAD A FIXED ELECTION.

the problem with the entire situation. is that the political world has once again become "eye for an eye." where trying to understand and communicate has been thrown out the fucking window. we are all humans. everyone is my brother and sister. its not about making the u.s.a a better place. or making russia a better place. for that would just be making a part of it better. when you could be worrying about the whole.

WE ARE ALL TOGETHER IN THIS WORLD AS ONE. IT IS TIME WE STOOD FOR PEACE AND LOVE. NOT HATE AND GREED. If you feel similar ways, contact me, I am trying to organize an anti-war rally.

IF YOU CANNOT RELATE TO THE FACT THAT THIS WORLD NEEDS PEACE AND LOVE, THAT IT IS UP TO US AND ONLY US TO CHANGE THE WORLD INTO A PEACEFUL LOVING PLACE, THAN I FEEL BAD THAT YOU HAVE SO MUCH CONTEMPT IN YOUR HEART. AND I WILL GIVE YOU A HUG WHEN I SEE YOU NEXT. ALL THERE IS, IS LOVE.

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 01:55:14 GMT

9 00 p.m.- On a Saturday night, and i know my night has long since peaked. I realized i am a pathetic human being. But than i realize, that this particular realization is kind of redundant. For being a human being, is to be pathetic. So i hoped and longed that i wouldnt be such a pathetic human being. As i have been in my life thusfar. Which just made me more human. For this is what all humans stive for, to be less pathetic. Therefore i became more pathetic, more lonely, and more cold. But As I have all of these thoughts, the one that hurts the most is I wonder, how come i am home early on a saturday night, how many people are at home right now like me. how many people will never read this. how many people will never see there home on a saturday night at 9 00. and how many people dont have a home on a saturday night at 9 00. So i sigh, and ask myself to be happy. For i do not have friends, i do not have love, let alone lovers, i do not have smiles, laughs, i do not have haircuts or brushed teeth. but for all the things i do not have, is not what is important. but what is important is that i have the ability to have.

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 00:18:44 GMT

Show Tonight. Cedars. Free. Love Circuit. Starts at 9

39lldad

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 13:30:32 GMT

ok. so heres the idea.

its black and white. Jess is wearing a one piece dress with a pearl necklace. Mike is the President, Ricardo his security. Ricardo and Mike are both killed by zombies, fake blood just spraying from there necks,as Mike was giving a speech at the presidential podium. Jess Calls me, I am an operator, i have a switch board in front of me. goes to jess ranting over the phone, than her calling the zombiekillaz. who are ripoff of ghost busters, there forte being killing zombies. i again answer the phone this time looking like "ghostbusters whatdya want." Gino and Erika come in and save the president's staff by shooting lasers. as it shows Jess driving away. at the end scene she crashes her car due to zombies.

end scene.

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 08:49:06 GMT

the only people i care about are my friends and my family.

id like to apologize for being a failure, a let down, and all the hopes and promises that ive made and were held, will never come to be.

i have had my heart broken several times. i still am not over it. i carry the weight of those breakups on my shoulder throughout every relationship i have, friendship, brother, son, boyfriend. i am sorry for this. maybe if i would of done things differently.

i feel i have no hope with life. i feel deserted and lonely. i have no one to blame but myself for these actions.

if i would of stayed in school, maybe i would of gone somewhere, but i didnt. i didnt have a choice, therefore feeling hopeless.

if i would of been a better boyfriend, a better lover, a better friend, a better son, maybe than i would of lost everything i cared about. but they left me, therefore i didnt have a choice.

what do you do when nothing matters?

if i were to be a doctor, sure id fix bones and hearts and noses and breasts and weights. but in the end. they fucking die. it doesnt matter.

if i were to be a lawyer, sure id find out who did what to whom, who comitted the crime, what belongs to who and who gets the kid. but in the end. they fucking die. it doesnt matter.

i will be remembered as a friend. i have no doubt in my mind i am a good friend. but its easy to be a good friend. when you have absolutely nothing else in the world. youd do anything for your friends. because they are all you have. friends and family. thats it.

but guess what, friends part ways in time, and so do family members, either because of deaths or arguments, which are pretty much the same thing. and in the end. it doenst really matter.

so when you dont even know what makes you happy. or the last time you felt it. what do you do?

sure, im intelligent, sure im cute, sure i have this i have that. but guess what it doesnt fucking matter, and neither does the world.

if the world to implode this very second. it wouldnt matter, i wouldnt give a fuck.

basically in sumnation. nothing matters, and i do give a fuck about the fact that nothing matters. but me giving a fuck doesnt matter, so i learn not to give a fuck. i hope i die soon, for to live would be far worse torture.

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 21:58:00 GMT

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